DISCLAIMER: This post was originally written in January of 2021 & here I am just now getting around to posting it. Sorry!
I had Covid-19.
When I type those words, I still feel emotional. A million thoughts went through my head when I got my test results back. When? Where? How? Why? My kids? My family? My job? So many things were uncertain. But I knew one thing for sure. I knew I wanted to keep a journal. I knew I wanted the world to read it. I knew I wanted to share these emotions. Here it is.
My COVID-19 Quarantine Journal.
Day 1: My test results came back negative today, and they were positive. I can’t believe it. I always practice washing my hands, wearing my mask, and social distancing. Somewhere, I went wrong, I guess. I told my family, and they were very worried, especially my parents. I told the girls, and they were confused. I told my close friends, and they were all shocked. My little brother was the only person that asked me, “Are you scared?” I replied, “A little.” But I feel fine, though I know things can change at any moment. I’m just praying that I continue to feel okay. The worst part of my day is when Aria facetimes me and cries because she can’t sleep in my bed. Ugh, it broke my heart. So, I will quarantine for 10 days per my doctor. As of right now, I’m not sure what will happen.
Day 2: It was a beautiful day outside today. Spent a little time looking out the window. Things like just going outside for a walk, I can’t believe I took for granted. Dd did really well with distance learning with the girls today. He even took a Target trip for me. Ivy cried outside my door today, literally. It sucked. Ordered us walkie-talkies from Amazon, so they can talk to me without having to stand outside the door. Also had dd grab them a new game to play to distract them a little. Ivy said, “It’s too hard without you, mommy.” I hate this. Today I feel really good though. Tomorrow is day 3.
Day 3: Today is Friday, and it’s the last school day of the week. I’m super proud of Dayjhan for taking over schooling with the girls. I know it hasn’t been easy. No symptoms today except a little wheezing when I laugh. The doctor said it’s fine. Today, I also got to have a virtual FaceTime date with Karen and my cousin Alisa. It was nice to interact with people, even if it was virtually.
Day 4: This morning was Saturday, and I slept in. I only slept in until about 8:45. Had a really good workout this morning, and I actually got a lot done work-wise. I was able to shoot for a job I got prior and get some of the girls’ YouTube video editing done. My little brother dropped off a case of water, so that was nice. But today was a little different from the other days. Warning TMI, but I totally have been using the bathroom half the evening. Some say that is a side effect. I also have a slight headache, which I heard was another side effect, but I happened to be on the computer all day. Probably going to get ready for bed soon.
Day 5: Today was kind of uneventful. Zero symptoms. I wasn’t running to the bathroom today at all. No headache. I cleared my emails, and it rained. I stared out the window for a little bit. Karen called me on FaceTime, and my mom. I like when people call me on FaceTime because it actually feels like I get to interact with someone. There honestly isn’t much to report today. Just a few more days left, I hope.
Day 6: Today was Monday. The girls are counting down the days, and they come near the door to talk to me. Today I took a meeting over the phone and just worked on some editing. Nothing else to report.
Day 7: Today I woke up a little bit earlier. It’s been storming really bad today. I worked on my computer a lot, made a to-do list for the rest of the week. Still no symptoms. Just ready to get out of quarantine.
Day 8: Today is my little brother’s birthday. He is 29 years old. A few family members were at the house to celebrate. My mom FaceTimed me while he opened his gifts. It hurts not being able to be there, but I’m glad he had a great birthday. I also cried today, partly from frustration of accidentally deleting all of my videos for a collaboration I was working on. Another part frustrated from being away from my family. No symptoms. Probably going to sleep early today.
Day 9: Today is yet another birthday, my cousin’s. I talked to him for a little bit this morning. He knows what I’m going through a little bit. Today was a long day. I have a headache from being on the computer all day. No symptoms, and I’ve pretty much just laid down all day. I did accomplish something exciting, but I’m not ready to write it down on paper just yet.
Day 10: Today is my very last day in quarantine! It’s been a long 10 days away from my kids. Hearing their little voices outside the door, being excited as they slid their photos that they drew for me under the door.
Still…
Not being able to hug my husband or my mom. But incredibly thankful that it could’ve been worse. Today I won’t complain; I will just take time to reflect on these last few days and all the people who are still quarantining, who are in the hospital. The ones who will not come home to their family or didn’t come home to their family. The ones we lost, the ones fighting. To everyone going through Covid-19, whether you have a mild case like I did or a really bad case, I wish this on no one. My heart goes out to you, and I prayed before I contracted Covid-19, I prayed during Covid-19, and I will continue to pray after. ❤️
-Porsha
P.S.
Dayjhan Carr, our family couldn’t have gotten through these 10 days without you. We’re very blessed. I love you.
And to my friends who checked on me and my family who dropped things off at the door, I love you all too.
If you think you may have Covid-19 or have been around someone who has, please go get tested. Wash your hands, wear your mask, social distance, and protect yourself and others. For more information, you can check out their website here.