Hello, how are you all?
I know it’s been such a while since I made a post here about 2 months if I’m not mistaken. But life happened. Life happened and it happened hard. Starting a new year you always go into it with such enthusiasm, such hope, such wonder. So many new goals to achieve, places to travel, things to see, people to meet. You anticipate all these things but you almost never anticipate loosing a loved one.
On February 3 God called my grandmother in law (GG-Ma) home. It was strange. It was unexpected, but also not at all. It was extremely painful, but afterwards slightly peaceful. It was life.. it was life and it happened so fast and knocked us off our feet we barely had time to breathe.
It’s been a month now. A month of supporting my husband through his heartache, a month of holding our girls at night when they cry. A month of curiously watching Riley as she says “hi” to GG’s photo every time we come downstairs. A month of talking with my mother-in-law as she makes plans for services, a month of listening and telling stories about GG how great she was, a month of heartfelt talks with my side of the family about all the memories we had with GG in the years we got to know her, a month of tears, then laughter, the more tears and more laughter. A month of remembrance. Remembering GG and all the beautiful moments we had with her is how will we keep her alive. Being happy, getting out the house (because she never kept her butt home), eating, shopping, having adventures. Just having fun, not being sad, being unapologetically happy. Thats how we will honor her. That’s exactly how she would have wanted it. No tears, no holding our heads low. Just happiness.
I will never forget the last time I saw GG and I’ll never forget the words she shared with me. I’ll always keep those private in my heart. Guarded, and treasured.
GG-Ma we miss you. We love you. We’re going up for you!
Sending my love to heaven, kiss my other loved ones for me.
-Girly (Porsha)